Crystal but Not Yet Clear

The view is not especially clear
but I can see some things I like.
It is going to be hard to line it up, and make it work
But I feel like it would be worth it.
Finally to make things make sense
and make them sustainable.

The Lily Year

If the first year is paper, and the 5th year is wood,
then the 16th year is memories of jars of star gazer lilies
intoxicating smells welcoming me home, and
soft shadows of green trees on the wall and winter walks with hot wine.
And wishing wells full of the coins of future dreams,
all in a rich velvet album in my mind.