Bloomin' everywhere

Blooms are everywhere
inside and out-
if you only take time to
look up down and all around
there is chance
and connection
and opportunity
and new growth
and oh so much beauty.

Demons small and large

Be GONE demons of doubt and depression.
You have no sway here.
We will keep on keeping on and find our smiles along the way.
The support of friends, family and the community are stronger than your scary self.
I will channel my inner "sasha fierce" and keep up the good fight.

life is delicious

Sometimes the most difficult days and seasons
end in the most delicious ways.
Perfect bites and reflections.
New friends and opportunities.

Crystal but Not Yet Clear

The view is not especially clear
but I can see some things I like.
It is going to be hard to line it up, and make it work
But I feel like it would be worth it.
Finally to make things make sense
and make them sustainable.

Tug of War

The pull between
the possible and the practical is a constant
in my life these last 4 months.
What Can I do? What Must I do? What do I Want to do.
These questions push and pull at eachother
every day. And most nights too.

Impossible Spring Planning

The weather is so changeable
Hot and sunny one day- cold and grey the next
it makes it hard to plan
event to choose an outfit for the day.
Put away the blankets and sweaters or no?
New projects moving in fits and starts.
While we wait for the spring storms to clear
and things to make more sense.
It is all a metaphor, of course.
These days what isn't?

Pushing Piles of Paper

Instead of pushing piles of paper around,
and carrying them from work to home to work again.
Today, thankfully, I have a cheerful helper.
Sorted, stashing, and smiling her way
through my mess!
The smiling is the BEST part!

Fragile Moods

 It does not take much.
Some flowers and sunshine
on the porch, to lighten the load.
Good small reminders
that roots are long, flowers are to
be stopped and sniffed at.
and that the seasons turn and
things do not remain either as good or as bad
as they might be today.

Gambatte

Gambatte =
Keep a stiff upper lip.
What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger.
Soldier on.
If at first you don't succeed, try try again.
Get back on the horse.
And so it goes.

Uphill, both ways...

I am trying, honestly.
But it needs to get a wee bit easier.
please.
(just a little bit easier - would help a lot)

Plans and Lists and more Plans

Lists and plans
going in many directions
planning and fixing and doing and changing
and mostly
working and hoping.
New direction needed.

Perspectiv-ity

It is all a matter of
hurly burly swirly vertigo-inspiring
perspective.
Walking a tightrope wire of
choices and ideas.
What comes first?
What comes last? 
And where do all the in between roads go?

Roughness

January was a month of rough
and craggy edges. Bumps and ugly wounds
But learning - Oh! the learning.

Little Things

On Mondays, (especially.)
I am grateful for tea.
An almost endless supply
of comfort and energy.

Winding and Climbing

Sometimes the upward climb seems endless and
the destination becomes obscured in the effort.
I am waiting for my second (third, fourth, fifth) wind.
Trying to find my inner reserve to keep climbing.
And hope it makes sense somewhere up there.

Marking Time

There are lots of ways to mark time
going in circles.
swinging back and forth.
Counting days and hours, or just letting them slide past.
It seems forever and just seconds ago all at the same time.
This has been a long four weeks.
And yet the time is getting away from me.

Temptation

As tempting as it is.
when I bury my head- the drama
sadly does not disappear.
So I have to keep picking up
and keep carrying on
and keep it all going.

The muddy, messy way forward

 It's all pretty muddy right now.
But there are little spots of clarity and reflection here and there.
And the path, though messy becomes more clear.
Now we need to try to take steps
without getting stuck. 

what to do...

A good thing to do when you are brain tired and heart weary
is sleep it off. After some junk food and indulgent entertainment.
Then pick up and start again tomorrow.

Dreaming time

Sun and moon rises,
and so much to do between each one
as the days to this year
are rushing down to the final hours.
Trying to find some dreaming time-
To think about what comes next.