Tease

Oh new life,

You are teasing me with

So many possibilities 

Now is the time to think 

Carefully and not rush ahead

In a coffee induced haze 

Hard to keep my focus. 

Demons small and large

Be GONE demons of doubt and depression.
You have no sway here.
We will keep on keeping on and find our smiles along the way.
The support of friends, family and the community are stronger than your scary self.
I will channel my inner "sasha fierce" and keep up the good fight.

chin up!

Trying hard to not be discouraged.
But also feeling a bit down in the mouth.
Lots to do. and Hopefully some things will break our way soon.
until then. Keeping on!

Sketches of a Plan

It

It's important to take time to do something I love
to create to share and to refuel.
I am going to see my way through
all of this chaos and confusion.
One small moment at a time.
Sketching out a plan, filling in the details.
Learning and growing on the way.

Crystal but Not Yet Clear

The view is not especially clear
but I can see some things I like.
It is going to be hard to line it up, and make it work
But I feel like it would be worth it.
Finally to make things make sense
and make them sustainable.

Tug of War

The pull between
the possible and the practical is a constant
in my life these last 4 months.
What Can I do? What Must I do? What do I Want to do.
These questions push and pull at eachother
every day. And most nights too.

Pushing Piles of Paper

Instead of pushing piles of paper around,
and carrying them from work to home to work again.
Today, thankfully, I have a cheerful helper.
Sorted, stashing, and smiling her way
through my mess!
The smiling is the BEST part!

Gambatte

Gambatte =
Keep a stiff upper lip.
What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger.
Soldier on.
If at first you don't succeed, try try again.
Get back on the horse.
And so it goes.

Uphill, both ways...

I am trying, honestly.
But it needs to get a wee bit easier.
please.
(just a little bit easier - would help a lot)

Please, be mine.

Oh, dear life,
Please be my valentine.
Let's kiss and make up.
Enough of this sadness and fighting.
Instead we can have big, sweet, sticky
times together again.
(With powdered sugar)

Perspectiv-ity

It is all a matter of
hurly burly swirly vertigo-inspiring
perspective.
Walking a tightrope wire of
choices and ideas.
What comes first?
What comes last? 
And where do all the in between roads go?

Roughness

January was a month of rough
and craggy edges. Bumps and ugly wounds
But learning - Oh! the learning.

Winding and Climbing

Sometimes the upward climb seems endless and
the destination becomes obscured in the effort.
I am waiting for my second (third, fourth, fifth) wind.
Trying to find my inner reserve to keep climbing.
And hope it makes sense somewhere up there.

Biting Off More Than You Can Chew

Doing what you already know is comfortable. It is easy, And it makes us feel successful.

Attempting something big, something beyond our reach, something larger than life is out there. The exposure along can send me running for an afternoon nap under the quilt on the couch. But the things I have learned in life generally come from leaping in, trying, sometimes crashing and burning. But lifting the heavy stuff, not just the twigs. Not easy. Not safe. But for me it is what makes it worth while.